Surprise

So I was lying in bed last night and it hit me "This baby has to come out at some point". I have tried my best not to think about this until the end because Lord knows that I will freak myself out...
The baby is still breached which also freaks me out but I am well aware that in most cases they can move even at the last minute. As I was thinking about him coming out I felt both happiness and there was a moment of sadness. I have carried him for this long and I feel so close to him so it makes me feel a little sad that I wont feel his kicks anymore. . . I was also a little sad because now we will hear his screams and cries and all that comes with a child. And then I thought of all the happiness he is going to bring to our lives. When he see's his daddy come home from work and says "Dadda, Dadda!" I cannot wait. Or when he smiles even before he can talk. I cannot wait. Life will be very different and at times very hard but we will have each other and that is something that tickles me pink ;)